Teach Yourself: Shutting Up!

What do you do when you're priorities are so screwed up that you have gotten yourself stuck in a tug-of-war with what you love doing, hope to do forever, and really want to find more time to do, but is essentially a long-term project... something else that you want to do also, but requires alot of time that you'd rather be putting into the first thing, but is a 'timed' project... a THIRD thing that needs alot of time and effort that you'd rather put into the first thing, but know you should probably put into the second thing... and a FOURTH thing that you absolutely hate, but absolutely need?
Holy crap... does this mean I'll have to... PLAN? Be responsible? MAKE A SCHEDULE... AND STICK TO IT?? OH MY GOD!!!
Yeah, that's probably what I'll have to do. It's the only logical way to do accomplish all of them at the 'same time.' (meaning, of course not having to put one down for a few months at a time, lose all my inspiration and ideas, and end up hating all my characters and plotlines that I have spent years devoloping, and redeveloping, and redeveloping over and over and over again.)
I hate this idea, if you can't already tell. I don't like structure, but I'll die without it. I hate the fact that I can't do what I want whenever I want. I hate being timed, having deadlines, and not being able to drop what I'm doing and write when inspiration hits me. But I have to. If I don't I'll go insane. But on the other hand, I'll be going insane the whole time I'm doing it.
Just shut up!! Stop complaining like a... like... like WHEN I CAN'T THINK OF THE RIGHT WORD!!! "You're stupid..." (Believe it or not, that makes me laugh, cause I know you don't mean it...)